Rocking the Boat

It’s been so long since I’ve posted on here, that I have forgotten how. So I’m actually writing this initially in Microsoft office and will have Chris post it later since he’s all computer genius and stuff.

I felt there were some things needed saying. Chris and I have been up and down back and forth. Things have been crazy. We’ve been on top of the mountains and down in the valley over the last three years. When Chris said he was going to start blogging again I thought, “Uh oh” at first because of the spam, the anger and the attacks that we inevitably set ourselves up for in continuing this little site. However, now I have a different perspective and I’ll tell you why....

Not long after Chris said to me that he wants to get more involved saying he wants to work with the youth in the church, start working on his relationship with God a little more, and all the other little things including starting this blog up again we got slammed by the enemy.

In the last three years Chris and I had decided to become foster parents, we wanted to fill our house with children and give some of them and their families a second chance. So we dove in head first and I think after recent events we’ve both hit our heads squarely on rock bottom. Hopefully not cracking them open….but it hurts just the same.

Without going into details about our current situation, I wanted to let everyone know how it has affected my faith. At first, when Chris wanted to get back into everything I was a little afraid. I wasn’t entirely happy with where we were, but it was comfortable, manageable, stressful, but easy…. and now the husband wants to rock the boat! I thought to myself, “Sure, I’ll support you and jump on your bandwagon. Why not? Maybe it’ll be good for me to go along for the ride, just don’t make me drive or anything.” …so I had a little bit of that going on at first.

Then we got slammed and I realized that I need to take a driver’s seat. I need to grow as much as Chris does. I need to journal and read my bible again because I’m really going to have a tough time dealing with the demons right now if I don’t. That’s not the only reason I insisted we replace the bible I had misplaced a while back, but part of it I’m sure was God taking a bad situation and making me realize how far down I had slid. I didn’t have his protection like I thought. I didn’t have his peace when I needed it. I nearly became depressed, hopeless and unhinged until I started digging through the bible again. At first it was hard, I hadn’t cracked open the bible to really search for a long time and I felt a bit guilty. Trust me though, dealing with my feelings of guilt for not cracking open his sacred book for almost a year was nothing compared to the feelings of hope and peace I found there again.

Now I’m writing all of this because I know that we shouldn’t wait for disaster to start calling on God again. The bible says we should praise him in times of joy and times of sorrow. We forget to do that in times of joy because we forget who’s really in control, we forget that God is the one giving us the joy and protection we desperately need from him. We don’t want to “rock the boat”. Well…it’s time I stood up and start rocking.